good news

we received some good news on wednesday.

we decided to put our trust on a certain man who is well known for his capacity to advise about doctors and treatments. but we were asked not to mention names.

on this day, after sending him most of our papers, his assistant called us and said - pull the hand break! - this, after being pressured by the hospital to start chymotherapy on sunday. - it is not urgent, he said. there is time for further investigation.

this diagnosis is very rare in children, it needs to be checked again, he said. and he may ask us to send the biopsy exam to be redone abroad. and he questions the treatment - should it be chymo or perhaps radiation?

so instead of starting chymo on sunday and having a major revolution in our lives for the next few months - we are going to see another specialist on sunday in tel hashomer.

life goes back to 'hold'. we have new hope. ilan goes back to school after succoth vacation. i can go back to writing funny stories. and we continue our lives without any immediate major changes.

even though this is not a final reprieve, i feel like a great weight has been lifted off my back. i feel dizzy with weightlessness. i am happy today even though i fear about the future news.

and dare we hope? dare we hope the unthinkable, that the diagonis was a mistake? that this nigtmare was just that, a bad dream? and if someone tells us that he is completely healthy, do we dare believe it?

a roller coaster of emotions...

wednesday was hoshana raba, the last judgement day for the year, after yom kipur. we received the news in the late afternoon, what would have been the time of 'ne-ila'...


by aba, 30/9/10